For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
Have you every been faced with a decision and you had no idea what to do? Did you wonder if there really was a right or wrong decision? If you asked me 20 years ago how I made my decisions, I’d say “Pray and flip a coin 3 times and go with 2 out of 3.” But as I grew in my faith walk and relationship with the Lord, I realized my decisions warranted a lot more than a flip of a coin. God has plans for my life and He has plans for yours too.
About 6 years ago, I was faced with a very important decision. My husband and I “thought” we were done having children. So after three children, we gave away all our baby stuff and we both continued working (I worked from home). When we found out we were pregnant with our 4th, we both were SHOCKED. Of course we were grateful, but our hearts were not in the right place. You see, God had a plan for us, but our eyes and hearts were set on a different plan.
When it came time for the ultrasound we were so excited to see our little baby. But to our surprise they could not find parts of our baby’s heart. “It must be a mistake” we thought. I went back for a second ultrasound and they still could not find parts of our little baby’s heart. I remember sitting in my car bawling, just bawling. I tried to call my husband and I could barely get in a word. All I could do was cry. “We broke our baby’s heart!” I said as I cried. My heart was so sad I because we didn’t accept the blessing God gave to us.
Terminating the pregnancy was not an option for us. We prayed for healing and we sent out prayer requests. We were so humbled and so broken. We were down on our knees asking God to heal our baby’s heart. Repair it. “You created the heaven’s and the earth Lord, please create a new heart for our baby.”
Our next visit was to the heart specialist. I was so scared, so nervous, so confused. I knew God could heal our baby if he wanted to, but I also knew that he may not be healed. God always answers prayers, just sometimes the answer is no.
So we waited for the results. Every minute felt like an eternity. When the doctor came in he told us the baby’s heart was fine. Breathe again. Amazingly all the parts of the heart were there! We only had to do a test at birth and take it from there.
So what was my major decision? My husband and I prayed together and in agreement in prayer we both felt the Lord put on our hearts to be open to receive as many children as He desires to gives us. That is a major decision. But after we almost lost our fourth baby, we realized that through that trial, God revealed to us His plan. Now we have six blessings (and counting) running around our home and we wouldn’t have it any other way.
What if? What if? What if we decided three children was enough? I would probably still be working from home. I would probably have a hobby or something…right? Oh, I may have a clean house. I may have Food Channel marathons. I would be baking, eating food while it was still hot, maybe playing soccer mom…
…but even as I write what could have been, tears well up in my eyes. I am filled with an emptiness and deep sadness. If we stopped at three, I wouldn’t have my energetic 3 year old who takes care of me when I am not feeling well. Who makes me laugh with his silly Batman impressions. I would not be able to rock my baby girl to sleep, hold her close to me, and listen to her sweet giggles. As busy and chaotic as my life is, I am so blessed to walk down the road less traveled with my gluten-free, homeschooling, oily family of eight. I know God has a plan for my life, and it is my desire that I live it for HIM.
God has plans for your life. When you are faced with a major decision don’t just flip a coin. Take time to bend a knee and pray. Be open to what God is showing you. He has plans for your life. He has plans for you to prosper and plans to give you hope! Believe He can use YOU to do amazing things! Don’t be afraid to take the road less traveled.
What major decision have you had to make? Where would you be if you had gone the other road?